tomistree

So I moved and as I arrived at the apartment in a new area of Berlin, winter arrived too. The winter sky has sunken over Berlin like a foggy blanket. It feels like a black/white filter has been put on and everything appears in grayish shades. Like I left my early twenties – my first period of adulthood, my first years in Berlin – autumn with all its blue skies and golden trees and long walks by the lake (with best company) left as well. November came and – like the cold winter breeze – I had a fresh start into a new living situation. I feel ready for the next part: now the mid-twenties! Whatever that means. 

Speaking of age, today my beloved sister turns 30. And my grandpa 90. A special day! Let’s dedicate this post to them. Those two have some courage in common I have a lot of respect for. Their past months haven’t been the easiest and while writing this, linger by Royel Otis is playing and I can’t change but tearing up a little – just by thinking how much I appreciate and admire them. My sister for being the most loving and caring person. My grandpa for telling me stories of the time when he went to America in his twenties and came back only for my grandma. All of them for staying strong even in challenging times. 

Honestly, I have not always felt like that. There has been a time when I was about 10 or 12 or something, when I was fantasizing about being an only child. Just because those days seemed so troublesome that I simply desired some peace. But let me tell you, the older I get, the stronger grows the bond between me and my four siblings. I feel like we have never been more grateful for each others and our unconditional little support system. I realize this every time one of my sisters or my brother calls me and we check on each others. We listen and we understand and give advice that feels comforting like a big hug, and is actually helpful. I never want to miss this, so: cheers to my sister today, who is entering the thirties as the first one of us. 

And by ending today’s update, I will return to the cats – my new flatmates – and my just today purchased novel. Ready to sink into my pillows and a new story.